(1969)

Somehow I felt like seeing Her and having Her Darshan. For few days these feelings were deep within. I did not write nor spoke to anybody. The feelings were in the core of my heart.

At night I went to sleep. I felt concretely that she was above my head carrassing my head and saying "I Love you" and disappeared within moments.

I got up but was lost for sometime entangled in Her Love, Her peace.......

It is inexpressible.

She heard the feelings of my heart. She is so Graciouus.

It was a surprise and throughout my life it is fresh in my consciousness.

What else I want in this life.

November.24.69

To day It is Darshan day. All are in happy mood and the atmosphere is all joyous.

December.5.69

Today all went to Sri. Aurobindo's room, and meditated near Samadhi.

He lived with human beings and what He has done for human beings, It cannot be expressed in words.

I am fortunate that I am at His feet.

December.9.69

I offered flowers of Lotus near Samadhi.

It is all so peace full, so delightful with His presence.

He is here Blessing and hearing the prayers of all His children.

I prayed to Bless me and make me such that I unite with the Divine.

December. 10.69

I sat near Samadhi for long.

I felt that I have not seen Him in His physical body.

He is Blessing me, guiding me, protecting me, and looks after every minute thing I wish.

Sometimes I wish for Something and then I forget all about it. I wonder when I get the thing I had wished. When I show my surprise for it I feel - He laughs.

It is all His unseen grace.

December. 25.69

Today it is my birthday.

My heart is full of Joy.

When I went to Her Sweet Mother greeted with all Her Love.

She was full of compassion.

She blessed and gave flowers. I remain happy through tout the day, my heart was filled with deep peace.

I sat near Samadhi feeling new.

This is all Her Grace.

He Blessed me. All His immense Grace.

In the evening Sweet Mother appeared for Balcony Darshan.

This moments are so precious they are auspicious - All are fortunate to have these inexpressible moments.

I sat near Samadhi. The feelings remained that the moments of Her Darshan are so precious on the earth.

I hope human beings realise this.

May.23.70

I prepare for having Her Darshan the next day.

I am completely composed. I feel at ease relaxed and composed.

I arranged lovely flowers with heart full of joy and anxiety.

At times I feel I am ignorant and very hard. How much I try to open fully to Her but in vain. Some revolts from within.

One smile of Hers and everything subsides. One smile of Her and everything changes - The whole being is filled with Love...

Divine Mother mould me new - so new

- a fresh flower.

Make me a fresh fragrant flower at your Lotus Feet.

August. 15.70

Today is the auspicious day.

The atmosphere is filled with joy.

The loving children prepared fully to celebrate His Birthday.

I offered flowers of lotus at Samadhi and sat near Samadhi- pure, peaceful, soothing.

When I went to the room, I knelt and prayed to Him.

It is all peaceful; deep peace radiating...

I feel He is so happy that children are celebrating the Birthday with so much Love.

In the evening Gracious Mother appeared to give Balcony Darshan. Her smile filled the heart with imparallel joy.

The exceptional, ever fresh, all pure, happy smile.

I feel,

I am a crawling baby sitting on the ground.

Pick me up and enhold me, embrace me,

embrace me

embrace me' Eternally.

One of my cousin was to get married.

The photograph of the couple was Blessed by Her.

When I saw the photograph of the couple Blessed by Her. I immediately felt the force. The Blessing were full of force and I could make out that the marriage would be very successful.

It was nothing but Her inexpressible grace upon Her.

November. 24.70

Today is the auspious day of Darshan.

I offered flowers at Samadhi and sat near Samadhi for a long time.

All pure - pure - Heavenly pure.

My heart feels that every moment

the Force of purity of peace is generating - shakti of Divine.

In the evening all waited in anxiety for the Darshan.

When Sweet Mother appeared, She is all bright shining. There is pin-drop silence.

I feel fortunate to have Darshan of merciful Mother.

December.5.70

Today all sat near Samadhi for meditation.

I sat near Samadhi almost the whole day. Also I kept offering the flowers of Lotus.

I felt - O Lord !

O humorous Lord !

How can you leave us ? You are with us all full of compassion.

You are living in everybody's heart.

December.9.70

The Samadhi is beautifully decorated. ,

It is all so peaceful The heart cannot stop humming-

You come to relieve the humanity from ignorance and sufferings.

You came to show the truth to humanity.

We are so grateful. It cannot be expressed in words.

December .24.70

I waited for tomorrow in the evening, I prepared a beautiful bouque of flowers.

I took long to prepare the bouque, to arrange flowers in vases and to make garland of flowers - It was all like meditation.

I went to sleep in bed with deep feelings of Love to see my Sweet Mother and without knowing when, I slipped into sleep.

December.25.70

With my heart full of Joy I went to Her for Darshan.

She received me with Love. she accepted the flowers which I offered with all Her tender Love towards Her child.

I cannot express in words how Sweet she was to me.

The whole day I felt exceptional peace and Her Love. I felt intoxicated with Love.

This is nothing but her grace.

January. 1.71

Today it is The New Year day .

All are in high spirits to celebrate the new year.

Everybody is delighted to receive the New year calendar and the new year message. She Blessed Her children for the New year.

I prayed near Samadhi for new strength, New energy to fulfill new hopes.

I aspire to progress throughout the year.

I sat near Samadhi. He showers His Blessings for New year.

January.2.71

I offered flowers at Samadhi.

The feelings of becoming something on the earth are strong.

To become Something on the earth - that means to become such instrument that gives devotional Service to Divine-1 become such instrument as Divine Wills -I got these feelings in my heart as I bowed at Samadhi.

I felt,

He Blessed me.

February.21.71

Today It is the Birthday of Sweet Mother

Everyone forgets everything else and gets engrossed to express the Joy of the day.

According to the aspiration each one started preparation to celebrate the centenary year.

Heart full of joy all started to prepare new things for decoration and exhibition distribution etc; etc;

I started painting sarees, cards, handkerchieves etc.

I felt as much is prepared it will be less to express the joy of celebrating it will be less to express the gratitude towards Him.

August. 15.71

Today It is auspious day as it is the Birthday of Sri. Aurobindo.

The atmosphere is full of life. All are in high spirits to celebrate the auspicious day.

I aspired to collect flowers of Sri. Aurobindo's compassion. I collected pretty flowers of Sri. Aurobindo's compassion and offered at Samadhi.

He is full of compassion, compassion which cannot be expressed in words.

In the evening people collected near Balcony.

Merciful Mother appeared to give Her Darshan - I felt all these moments so precious.

To be in front of Divine. These moments in life are so precious. I feel so fortunate. All are fortunate.

I sat near Samadhi in the evening. I felt superbly pure, spiritual atmosphere.

O! Lord !

Iconstantly hear all about your compassionate acts. I chant heard and read all about your compassionate acts and wonderful pastimes. I am filled with thoughts of your merciful acts. They are pleasing and satisfying the heart.

November.24.71

Today It is Darshan day.

When I went to His room. I offered flowers. I experienced immense peace. He pours His causeless mercy.

peace.. .peace.. .peace expressing the messenger of Supramental world.

I remained quiet and composed.

The viberating peace expresses that the work will be done.

December.10.71

I offered red and white lotus and pretty flowers at Samadhi.

I was standing in silence.

I saw New Birth at Samadhi.

You give new Birth to all those who come and take shelter at your Lotus Feet.

There is no word to express the gratitude towards Him.

December.25.71

Today I feel in high spirits to celebrate the birthday and to have the Darshan of Sweet Mother.

I made pretty bouque of flowers and got ready anxiously to go for Her Darshan. In the morning when I entered the room for Her Darshan I felt the heavenly atmosphere. It was superb.

When I went to Her She happily received me and lovingly patted me.

Sweet Mother was so full of compassion, so loving, so sympathetic...

My vision was covered with Her Love.

Very lovingly She gave me a pretty card and a beautiful bouque of flowers Divine Mother Blessed me. I felt very fortunate.

The whole day I remained saturated with Her Love.

I prayed near Samadhi. I felt all Fresh and new from within for the following days and I felt like going to Her everyday.

January. 1.72

Today, The new year starts. The memorable year starts.

There is special joy in the heart as it is the beginning of centenary year. Everyone is in high mood to celebrate the day. All around there is joy.

The new year calendar with attractive photograph was distributed.

Everywhere beautiful charming flowers are decorated. The eyes relishes the arrangement of fresh fragrant flowers.

I offered flowers and lotus an Samadhi.

I prayed to gracious Lord to deliver me from ignorance and I open to His light and power.

I prayed to Him that I remain cheerful, energetic, active throughout the year.

I decorated the meditation room with flowers. I made garlands with pretty flowers. While making garland I chanted the mantra continuously.

February.21.72

Today it is the Birthday of Sweet Mother.

My heart is overwhelmed with joy to celebrate the birthday of Sweet Mother.

I decorated the meditation room with lovely flowers. The in sense filled the room with fragrance.

I sent bouque of beautiful flowers with delicious fragrance.

Everywhere the artistic decoration of fresh beautiful flowers expresses the joy of celebration.

I felt so cheerful. I offered white lotus and flowers at Samadhi. While praying I felt so happy so happy as I felt that He is Blessing me with so much of His Love.

This cannot be expressed as it is only between Divine and His child.

In the evening, I saw cheerful looks near Balcony. The Merciful Mother gave Darshan. There was complete silence. She showered Her Blessings upon Her children.

I sat near Samadhi for a long time.

At night I was resting on the bed and thinking deeply about Her. I was lost. I was completely absorbed in Her severe aspect. She looks ever fresh blooming, shining, everlasting, glow of Her face, eager to shower Her Blessings upon the children.

The glow of Her face-so pleasing to the heart- This does not move from the eyes the glow gladdens the eyes. I wish to see it and adore again and again.

For this auspicious year all are fully engrossed in work in every different field. There is much enthusiasm for the approach ing pious day of 15th August. Each one is absorbed in the preparation according to own aspiration. Some make beautiful Blessing packets.

I concentrated in fabric painting. I kept painting handkerchieves specially with Red lotus and roses. I made cards and a few artistic things.

Throughout the year many special programmers are arranged for the programme of centenary year. I practised dancing under the guidance of dance teacher. I practised for hours. I enjoyed it and never felt tired.

May.24.72

I am very happy this morning. It is fine day for me as it is spiritual Birthday.

When I went to Her she received me lovingly. She patted me like a small child. I lost my all other consciousness and deeply adored Her. My merciful Mother is so full of compassion I cannot express in words.

The flowers which she gave me, cheered me the whole day.

I remained near Samadhi for long. There was unusual joy and peace in heart. I felt new.

I prayed I have no words to thank Him for the Grace. He pours constantly upon me.

Some Tapasya of past births. Some relations of births that brought me at the lotus feet of Divine Mother and The Lord.

They liberated me.

August.14.72

Almost the whole day I was absorbed in the preparation to celebrate the memoriable day tomorrow.

It took long time to decorate the floor of meditation room with colours; designs were of red lotus. I arranged flowers in the vases everywhere.

I was very happy while making garlands of fresh charming fragrant flowers.

I remained near Samadhi for a long time humming the holy mantra.

Sri. Aurobindo sarnam mama.

Special Blessings were distributed. The arrangement of fresh pretty flowers everywhere are so pleasing. They give pleasure to the heart.

In the exhibition hall the handcraft work is marvellous. The art work everywhere is excellent.

Cheerful faces appeared everywhere. Everyone enjoys to celebrate the day.

In the evening the streets were overcrowded. The gracious Mother appeared for Darshan. Silence prevailed everywhere.

I got absorbed in Her look. There is no other pleasure on the earth than to have a look at Her. The soul is content.

All were fortunate to have Darshan of eternally beautiful luminious Divine Mother.

I went near Samadhi I felt peace-Joy-Blissful-everything super excellent.

I bow to Him- He pours His Love. There is no words to express His gratitude.

I got a golden ring with His symbol Blessed by the Mother. I was simply thrilled to have it as remembrance of this

auspicious day. It protects me. This is all Her immense Grace.

Throughout the day there was nothing but joy-joy all around.

August. 16.72

I offered lotus at Samadhi.

I prayed that I grow little by little till I realise Divine. With your grace I see Divine everywhere.

November.24.72

I decorated the meditation room with flowers. Delicious smell of the in sense filled the room.

When I went to His room I felt all Blissful I offered flowers. He is merciful-ever ready to shower His blessings.

In the evening gracious Mother gave Her Balcony Darshan. I adored Her. There was complete silence.

The mind is filled fully with the thoughts of Her adoration I realise ever new pleasure in Her.

December. 9.72

I offered flowers and in sense at Samadhi.

Peaceful, Pure atmosphere radiates.......Complete silence immense peace...

Continuously I chanted the ,mantra.

You are everywhere, whenever there is sincere call you are present and you shower your profound Grace.

Whoever came at your Lotus Feet

you are eager to liberate Him.

You are Eternal.

Your Activities are ever new.

Your ways are unfathomable.

I remain your humble child at your Lotus Feet.

December. 25.72

I made beautiful bouque of flowers. There is immense joy to celebrate the birthday as I shall have Darshan of Divine Mother.

When I went to Her, She greeted me lovingly. I did my pranam. She gave bouque of pretty flowers and a card. She patted me tenderly. She was full of compassion. My heart melted with ecstatic Love.

When I came out, I felt new Fresh different.

My heart hums,

My Mother, My dear Mother, My mother, My loving Mother, My dear dear Mother.

I loved the flowers she gave.

For the following days the flowers gave special pleasure. I remained very happy and cheerful...

This is all Her abundant Grace.

January. 1.73

Today the new year starts.

I offered fresh flower at Samadhi and prayed that I remain fresh as flower throughout the year at His Lotus Feet.

I was very happy to have New year calendar. I concentrated in the message given by the Mother.

Everybody enjoyed to greet each other and to celebrate the new year in joyful atmosphere.

February.21.73

Today it is the birthday of Sweet Mother. There is no word to express the happiness.

I made bouque and garlands of beautiful flowers. I was delighted to have Her Blessings. The atmosphere is filled with joy to celebrate Her birthday.

Everywhere beautiful charming flowers filled the heart with pleasure.

I sat near Samadhi. all in cheerful mood.

In the evening my heart melted with fire of anxiety to see my loving Divine Mother. There was complete silence. When the Gracious Merciful Mother appeared the heart was filled with ecstatic Love.

After Darshan I remained in the same state of ecstatic Love. I felt unusual peace and joy.

At night I was absorbed in Her thoughts. I strongly felt it is great Fortune to celebrate the birthday of Divine Mother present on the earth. It is rare fortune. it is

April.1.73

I was simply happy to remember this day as I used to fool friends.

I fooled one or two persons very lightly.

I remember Divine can fool anybody and I simply felt happy.

May.24.73

For my spiritual birthday I made pretty bouque of flowers and garland. I love to make bouque of flowers and garlands for Sweet Mother.

When I went to Her for Darshan I offered the flowers. She Blessed me and gave flowers and a card. I went for short time to have Her Darshan.

I went and sat near Samadhi with different pure feelings.

I prayed that I remain Her humble child at Her Lotus Feet.

Her Lotus Feet is everything for me on this earth.

So spontaneously I chant the holy mantra...

August.15.73

Today the heart is full of joy to celebrate His Birthday.

Idecoratedflowers everywhere. While making the garland I chant the holy mantra.

I offered the flowers of Lotus at Samadhi. The heart soars in the pure peaceful atmosphere.

When I went to His room I felt that He is happily Blessing me.

In the evening I was happy to have Her Balcony Darshan.

There was joy everywhere throughout the day to celebrate His birthday.

September. 1.73

I offered flowers at Samadhi.

My heart chants that I bow for thousands and thousands of times at your Lotus Feet.

Spontaneously the heart chants that I bow at your Feet for thousands and

thousands times.

My heart yearns to serve Divine. My hearts craves to serve Divine only and not any human being.

November. 17.73

At 3 p.m. at night we all gathered at Ashram.

Divine Mother had left Her Body.

The body was luminious, shining, magnificent. There was complete silence, peace was radiating.

Hundreds of people came for Darshan.

There was complete silence but each heart sobbed.

At the age of 95, She left Her Golden body.

This was Her will, Divine's will.

We had to accept it.

She was placed at Samadhi.

She is Eternal. She is protecting Her

children. She is guiding Her children.

She is flame of Love. She is everywhere.

I am at Her lotus feet.

Her Lotus Feet is everything for me.

I cannot forget Her even for a moment. I belong to Her. She is my life my soul.

She knows that I want only Her and I do not want any human beings between Her and me. She is omnipresent. She knows everything.

From within I thoroughly remain maddened by the ecstasy of Love for Sweet Mother....

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